5 years ago today- the trees around Auburn regional hospital were a flame with crimson leaves- the sky was a clear crisp blue. I woke up early just buzzing with anticipation. I didn't know what you looked like- I had never heard your voice- I never knew how much I would love you or how fierce my instincts to protect you would be. I never knew how little sleep I could survive on or how frustrating being a mommy could be. I didn't realize I'd cry so much- both with joy and with pain. All I knew was that I had two willing arms that wanted to hold you.

And I have never regretted it for a moment.

Hudson- you are such a joy! You drive me crazy- you melt my heart- you make me laugh- you help me see the world with new eyes.

I love you! Happy Birthday my five year old! Your hands are no longer the chubby hands of a toddler, but they still fit in mine- and they always will!